Monday 17 May 2010

:)

Still writing blogs, just not using this blog site anymore.
found one that is compatable with my blackberry.
if you still want to keep up with my blogs you can catch me at.
May still use this one now and again.

www.ashapatrice.tumblr.com

Monday 22 March 2010

Enlightenment.

Last couple weeks have been kind of crazy, the time first i actually i don't feel tired. Lets update, what have i actually been doing, while about 2 weeks ago, i was doing my A2 music perfromance exam, which i think went very well, very proud of myself, singing my little heart out like that :) LOL.
Last week, i went on a trip to Poland, I bet your thinking why the F**K are you going to poland, thats what everyone seems to ask me. It was a trip about the holocaust, We went to visit Auschwitz - looking at the concentration camps. I must say it was a very amazing trip. It is said that you don't really get the full effect of something until you actually see it.
I have always had a interest in the holocaust just cause it was such a tragic event that you hear about all the time and you see films and stuff which brings you to tears, and there are just always parts that you just don't understand.
It gives you some knowledge, and the question that seemed to reply in my head as i was walking through these concentration camps was HOW FAR ARE PEOPLE REALLY WILLING TO GO?

Think about, how sick in the head do you have to be, to think about killing a person, But to kill a whole race for what reason? because they are who they are. It just really puts things is persepctive. As i was walking past rooms full of womens hair, and shoes and baby's clothes. Why reck all these peoples lifes? So many questions, but there is no one to really answer. there is no actually justification to why any of this happened. but then this argument could be about anything? Take slavery. It just doesn't make sense.
Have you ever sat in class and just looked around the class room and wonder what is going to become of the people you sit with? the person on the right of you could be your next president, were as the person on the left could be a serial killer.
The other thing i ask is, Would you actually do anything if you were in a similar situation? Would you try and help someone or speak up about it being wrong or will you sit back and ignore that anything even happened? This kind of goes back to what i was saying in a previous blog about people being so individulistic only thinking about there selfs, but i wonder if this situation was brought to peoples attention would they really sit back and let it just happen. Hmmmm. have a think about that.
"There were many ways of not burdening one's conscience, of shunning responsibility, looking away, keeping mum. When the unspeakable truth of the Holocaust then became known at the end of the war, all too many of us claimed that they had not known anything about it or even suspected anything." - Richard von Weizsaecker

Thursday 11 March 2010

So i have done my recital and now its the exam, wish me luck :)

Friday 26 February 2010

It comes to the point were nothing seems to change, and you have been in a place so long that its really time to get up and just move on. I think that finally hit me today.
when things became so ridiculous that it was like, is this what life has actually turned to. These last couple of days really have just not been my days, i was happy and that it is just slowly fading away.
To notice how a world has become so individualistic that the consideration of others doesn't seem to matter anymore. This world hass taken on such a post-modern view of life, that the 'helping each other out' statement has literally gone out of the window.
It's not true that life is one damn thing after another; it is one damn thing over and over. Edna St. Vincent Millay (1892 - 1950)

Monday 22 February 2010

4 months.

Wow. I can actuallly say its been forever lol.

4 months to go.
1. Exams should be over.
2. I Finally finish college
3. My 18th woohooo!

So much seeems to be happening in my life, and all in the next 4 months and i actually can't wait. Just want to be set free. Have fun. No worries. :)
I'm turning 18 and i'm sort of happy, at the moment it just feels like another age, allowing me to do abit more. hmmmm. Am i ment to be excited ?? I guess sooo.
I'm just looking forwardd to the presents. He he he

What can i say life so far has been quite good for me, you know people have had there ruff patches but who doesn't ha. :)
What i have found myself doing so much recently is just watching films, and getting updated with all these new films. I found myself watching a film called 'My sisters keeper', now for those who haven't seen this film i recommened it to anyone. It is truly amazing, the story the way it is put together, I actually had to clap for this film. I was also crying my eyes out. LOL. Oh to get the many concept of the film its about a girl dying form cancer, and how her little sister was genetically constructedto save her, i don't want to give anyway the whole story i just think everyone should watch it.
But yeah, i just find myself doing really simple things, no clubbing or extremly drunk nights, just staying in being lazy enjoy a book or a film and feeling satisfied. Who ever said you needed to go out to have fun hey.

At the moment i see myself as growing, becoming a young adult. Learning the tricks and trades of being all grown up as the say. Even though alot of people think i look like 14 (what an insult lol) But, i never thought growing up could be so hard. But i'll live:)

I have been thinking whether or not to get a blackberry? Everyone says get a iphone, but i don't want a touch screen, If iphone had a qwerty keypad then i would. But i want a phone with a qwerty keypad. Has anyone got any suggestions for phones????? (would be a massive help!)

I'm going to try and make sure it doesn't take me forever to right another blog :) x

Wednesday 28 October 2009

Other side.

When looking through a window everything seems so perfect, until you notice the sky turning gray or litter on the floor, and that view doesn't seem so perfect anymore. The happy feeling that you felt, you wanting to be one of those people walking by, feeling free. Wanting to the person on the other side of the window, with someone looking at you wishing they could be you. But no your trapped, trapped in an empty room, with four walls and a window and all you can do is look out of it and wish and hope you could be on the other side.

Thursday 17 September 2009

One to Ten.

You start at 1, then you get to like 7 and then get knocked back down to one again. why create a 10 if there is no possible way to reach it. Then there is always the view not to let you be knocked back down to 1. but how is that possible, there is always going to be something or someone knocking people down. i believe people have occupations in doing this. they actually get paid to just knock people down, once they reach like 7 - 8.
but then do you give up, and just stay at 1, or do you try agian, knowing that you may never see 10. Knowing that life, has losed of people paid to knock you back down to 10. mmm.

Mayb i'm just going crazy again lol. i seem to do that alot.