One to Ten.

You start at 1, then you get to like 7 and then get knocked back down to one again. why create a 10 if there is no possible way to reach it. Then there is always the view not to let you be knocked back down to 1. but how is that possible, there is always going to be something or someone knocking people down. i believe people have occupations in doing this. they actually get paid to just knock people down, once they reach like 7 - 8.
but then do you give up, and just stay at 1, or do you try agian, knowing that you may never see 10. Knowing that life, has losed of people paid to knock you back down to 10. mmm.

Mayb i'm just going crazy again lol. i seem to do that alot.

I haven't written something in a while, i believe i need to get my throughts clear and in order.
But i feel a new me is in order. I have a great boyfriend, and life seems to be only looking up form here.
Maybe a make over is in order, change of hair, maybe dye it...i just feel to start a fresh. feel fresh. Maybe you could give me your opinion...i just feell old and boring at the morning. i need to grow up, feel better.