It comes to the point were nothing seems to change, and you have been in a place so long that its really time to get up and just move on. I think that finally hit me today.

when things became so ridiculous that it was like, is this what life has actually turned to. These last couple of days really have just not been my days, i was happy and that it is just slowly fading away.

To notice how a world has become so individualistic that the consideration of others doesn't seem to matter anymore. This world hass taken on such a post-modern view of life, that the 'helping each other out' statement has literally gone out of the window.

It's not true that life is one damn thing after another; it is one damn thing over and over. Edna St. Vincent Millay (1892 - 1950)

4 months.

Wow. I can actuallly say its been forever lol.

4 months to go.
1. Exams should be over.
2. I Finally finish college
3. My 18th woohooo!

So much seeems to be happening in my life, and all in the next 4 months and i actually can't wait. Just want to be set free. Have fun. No worries. :)
I'm turning 18 and i'm sort of happy, at the moment it just feels like another age, allowing me to do abit more. hmmmm. Am i ment to be excited ?? I guess sooo.
I'm just looking forwardd to the presents. He he he

What can i say life so far has been quite good for me, you know people have had there ruff patches but who doesn't ha. :)
What i have found myself doing so much recently is just watching films, and getting updated with all these new films. I found myself watching a film called 'My sisters keeper', now for those who haven't seen this film i recommened it to anyone. It is truly amazing, the story the way it is put together, I actually had to clap for this film. I was also crying my eyes out. LOL. Oh to get the many concept of the film its about a girl dying form cancer, and how her little sister was genetically constructedto save her, i don't want to give anyway the whole story i just think everyone should watch it.
But yeah, i just find myself doing really simple things, no clubbing or extremly drunk nights, just staying in being lazy enjoy a book or a film and feeling satisfied. Who ever said you needed to go out to have fun hey.

At the moment i see myself as growing, becoming a young adult. Learning the tricks and trades of being all grown up as the say. Even though alot of people think i look like 14 (what an insult lol) But, i never thought growing up could be so hard. But i'll live:)

I have been thinking whether or not to get a blackberry? Everyone says get a iphone, but i don't want a touch screen, If iphone had a qwerty keypad then i would. But i want a phone with a qwerty keypad. Has anyone got any suggestions for phones????? (would be a massive help!)

I'm going to try and make sure it doesn't take me forever to right another blog :) x